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You only get one lapse. Usually it’s when you’re too young to have any idea what you’re doing, and you get so fucked up that you won’t remember what it felt like, what drove you to it, or how you felt before it. Afterward your entire life is spent in recovery and any time you sink it’s not a lapse anymore, it’s a relapse. I wonder what it’s like to go through life without ever sinking…?